Naturally, when you think of someone as your best friend they are the person you tell all of your secrets to and confess all of your fears and dreams for the future. They are also someone you laugh with and tell your dumbest jokes to without fear of looking like a complete weirdo(and even if you are they still love you and might even laugh at the bad joke)And when you're having a bad day you immediately call them because you know they are the only person in the world that can make you feel better. I am very lucky because I am in love with my best friend.
It's taken me nearly 11 years to get my head out of my ass to realize he's The One for me. There was always a romanticised version of "the one" in my head. He really does exist. He is not a fantasy. He's flesh and bone. His name is Eric. He is all of the things I've ever wanted. Maybe even things I wanted in someone but didn't know I wanted. He's funny and weird(in the good way). He's charming and hopelessly romantic. He encourages my writing but also tells me not to push myself too hard. He watches any Jane Austen movie with me and doesn't complain when I drag him to antique stores. He even laughs when I get excited about "a really old book". This wonderful guy has always been my friend and I did consider him a really good friend and best friend, someone I could tell anything to, but now I really, truly understand what the words "best friend" mean. It's more than just laughing and joking around with someone(although we do that a lot). Eric is the person I tell everything to. And when I say everything, I mean EVERYTHING. I do it without fear of looking stupid or thinking I'm wrong because he loves me for me and unconditionally. He makes me feel wonderful and beautiful when I'm dressed up or even in a fleece pullover, no make up and my hair up in a knotted mess. He makes me feel unashamed and sexy when we make love. The passion we share for each other, in and out of the bedroom, is like nothing I've ever felt before. Yes, that was a little personal but why hold it back? I learned that from him, too. It's amazing the things you learn from someone in 11 years. I've also learned to embrace my "dark side" and let go of the angel I'm always trying to be. He's the person I can be "bad" with. I don't think he knows how much I love that. Now he does. And if he did know, he's relieved that I'm finally admitting it. ;-) I can be the real me around him without fear of being condemned for being weird or not the norm. For this and many other reasons I love him with all of my heart and soul.
I'm so grateful, thankful and blessed that I am able to call my lover my best friend but that is exactly what he is to me. And he always will be. He's my other half. The other piece of me. Without him I am not complete. He's my friend, lover, and future husband.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Saturday, May 15, 2010
It's May...
...and I haven't been blogging at all. Obviously. Eric's blog inspired me to post today. I tend to be a copy cat because he blogs and then I realize I haven't blogged in a while so I end up blogging, too. Thank you, honey!
So what's been going on with me? Working, studying, and spending time with my son have been occupying my time. I took the THEA test this morning so that I can go back to school. We'll find out how I did in two weeks. I either did really well or really poorly. I'm hoping its the first one. What's the scariest thing is that I'm surprisingly calm about the fact that I took a major test today. It's not the "I don't care" calm. It's more of the "at peace with it" calm. Being calm is much better than freaking out, don't you think?
Things have been pretty lonely since I let(or more accurately pushed) Eric to leave. Stupid woman! I almost immediately saw the error of my ways and we are happily back together, even if we are 800 miles away from each other. All I have to say is thank God for texts messages. There's no other man that I want to be with and spend the rest of my life with. People say that all the time but I really cannot picture being with anyone else. He's the one I will be growing old with. (I know he's smiling his face off 1)because he loves when I say stuff like this and 2)I'm publically posting it. He's also thinking "about time"). I really came thisclose to letting a good thing slip away. All I have to say is I'm so grateful that he loves me enough to put up with my shit. There's no way to sugar-coat it because that's exactly what he did. If all things work in our favor he and the kids will be moved back down here soon and we'll be a big, happy family. And for all of those wondering what that means, it means rings are exchanged and my name is changed. I can't wait for that day!
How's my writing going you ask? HA! That is a funny question. Did you expect for me to say I've been writing all day like a mad woman? I wish that would've been my answer. It sounds much better than I'm not making time for it. I'm still determined to get published and there is still half the year left so there's still time to submit, at the very least, some short stories and novellas. I can do it. And I know Eric will offer help if I need "inspiration". He's been more inspiring than he realizes.
Anyway, I'm off to get some things done around here that I've been neglecting and then it's Mommy and Nathan Time. YAY!
Happy Reading!
Liz
So what's been going on with me? Working, studying, and spending time with my son have been occupying my time. I took the THEA test this morning so that I can go back to school. We'll find out how I did in two weeks. I either did really well or really poorly. I'm hoping its the first one. What's the scariest thing is that I'm surprisingly calm about the fact that I took a major test today. It's not the "I don't care" calm. It's more of the "at peace with it" calm. Being calm is much better than freaking out, don't you think?
Things have been pretty lonely since I let(or more accurately pushed) Eric to leave. Stupid woman! I almost immediately saw the error of my ways and we are happily back together, even if we are 800 miles away from each other. All I have to say is thank God for texts messages. There's no other man that I want to be with and spend the rest of my life with. People say that all the time but I really cannot picture being with anyone else. He's the one I will be growing old with. (I know he's smiling his face off 1)because he loves when I say stuff like this and 2)I'm publically posting it. He's also thinking "about time"). I really came thisclose to letting a good thing slip away. All I have to say is I'm so grateful that he loves me enough to put up with my shit. There's no way to sugar-coat it because that's exactly what he did. If all things work in our favor he and the kids will be moved back down here soon and we'll be a big, happy family. And for all of those wondering what that means, it means rings are exchanged and my name is changed. I can't wait for that day!
How's my writing going you ask? HA! That is a funny question. Did you expect for me to say I've been writing all day like a mad woman? I wish that would've been my answer. It sounds much better than I'm not making time for it. I'm still determined to get published and there is still half the year left so there's still time to submit, at the very least, some short stories and novellas. I can do it. And I know Eric will offer help if I need "inspiration". He's been more inspiring than he realizes.
Anyway, I'm off to get some things done around here that I've been neglecting and then it's Mommy and Nathan Time. YAY!
Happy Reading!
Liz
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